A Blossom of pinkness for blossom. .

Friday 20 December 2013

Seasons Greetings

Hi Everyone this girl just wanted to wish her friends, readers and lurkers a very merry christmas and a happy and healthy new year....wishing you all the best for 2014...smiles

Wednesday 18 December 2013

Cuffed girl....

Master's loving words: O/our links to each O/other…At least the visible ones…O/our hearts are linked forever…smiles
this girl is now wearing her Master's mark of Ownership...His steel cuff....this girl is proud and honoured to wear Master's cuff...she is a very happy girl... huge smiles Love You Master

Sunday 15 December 2013

Bondage...

this girl just thinks the female form looks glorious whilst bound...

Monday 2 December 2013

Anniversary....




HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MASTER....the past two years have been absolutely wonderful with You, this girl has grown in ways she never thought she could...she has blossomed under Your guidance and O/our future can only get better...smiles

Your loving slave


Thursday 28 November 2013

Thanksgiving....

Happy thanksgiving to all my friends, readers and lurkers who live across the pond...


Wednesday 27 November 2013

Centred and content.....

Master and this girl got to spend some precious time T/together training...this is just a little excerpt of what took place...

Master had this girl swat her inner thighs with the wire whip as this seems to be the best place for His body to be marked...this girl lost count of how many swats she took to the inner thighs, but they were delicious and Master's slut is now carrying some nice dark bruises on both inner thighs, they are very sensitive too, this girl can feel the tenderness in them when walking around, the material rubbing up against them...also they are sore to touch, which is a lovely reminder of who owns this girls body.

Master also tortured His tits, these too are very sensitive and sore...but this girl hasnt caressed them as she normally loves to especially after training...smiles...restriction is in place so those and Master's pussy are a no no...wwwaaayyyy out of bounds to this girl....putting the cords on Master's tits and the wearing of them was quite intense but this girl breathed through it, she is learning to do that, to focus on the pain, to embrace the pain...Master had this girl smack them with the wooden spoon and also to flog them and He also stepped up the pain by having her concentrate on the nipples, wearing of pegs on the nipples too...first time for this girl to actually wear a peg on the nipple...this girl did whimper doing this and also tears flowed when she was asked to flog off the  pegs on His tits...she dreads that as when she flogs the pegs they hold on for grim death and nip like hell when this girl cant get them off in the first strike...again this girl was breathing through this pain and although she wanted to cry she held on to them and didnt let them flow at the beginning, she wanted Master to see she how much she can take, felt the tears were a sign of weakness but they arent as Master said and Master does love to see His slave's tears...she wont hold them back anymore...smiles

she also got to flog Master's pussy, which was absolutely delicious, feeling the rubber strands sting Master's pussy lips...it felt good sitting on the chair feeling the anal plug in His tight hole while she swatted His pussy...it felt dirty but delicious...this girl did try to fuck Master's ass with her dildo but she couldnt and got quite frustrated at that point...tears flowed then...sighs

this girl did fly a little and she loves nothing more than spending time with Master as she comes down...He is always there for her...this is a very special moment, she feels very loved and wanted, she could actually see it in His eyes when W/we were looking at each O/other....Master guiding His slave back down to earth again...such a warm fuzzy feeling throughout this girls body....huge smiles

as this girl sits here writing this, the pain is still radiating down her thighs....as she squeezes them together she feels Master's pain...delicious.

this girl is a very centre and content slut...huge smiles

Saturday 16 November 2013

Loving her tasks....

over the past couple of days Master has moved this girls training up a notch or two...huge smiles...and this girl is absolutely loving every moment of it...you can read about things this girl has gotten up to over on Master's blog at http://thetrainingofmylovelyslut.blogspot.co.uk   Master also changed the name of His blog to The training of My sexy slave though the link above says different...this girl is honored and over the moon with this...thank you Master.

Master talked about this girl wearing His rope cuffs all night which this girl loved doing...it was amazing to feel Master's control during her night when she wakened from her sleep, but fell back to sleep again immediately, it did feel strange though she will admit to that being unable to move her arms around, or put one's hands under her pillow...smiles...but when she woke up Master was the first person she thought of...smiles


What Master omitted to say in His posting was that He has put this girl onto complete restriction from touching His property, this girl is on permanent orgasm denial anyhow but Master allows this girl to touch His property and edge for Him but not this time, she is only allowed to clean and dry herself, which makes this girl feeling quite hot and horny, this will continue until Master gives her permission to touch herself again....this girl does love this task, she loves to wait with sweet anticipation as to when Master will give her her release and in the meantime she will drive herself silly with the frustration of being unable to touch herself..her fingers want to do a bit of walking....smiles..her hands are tied by an invisible rope so to speak....watch this space!!!!

Saturday 26 October 2013

Snippet

a little snippet of the knife play that W/we both enjoyed during O/our time with each O/other...smiles

I took my knife. A heavy bladed lock blade knife that has a keen edge. she lay on her stomach and I began dragging it across her back. Using the point to trace long lines across her. From shoulder to shoulder, then hip to shoulder. Scratching a large "W" on her back to mark her as my property. I unfortunately couldn't make it permanent...grins...she shivered a few times as she felt the sharp edge of the blade drag across her tender flesh. Lines criss-crossed her back in every direction.
 
I had her turn onto her back so I could torment those big, tender tits, and also so she could see the blade as it touched her flesh. Seeing it coming towards her sensitive nipples and soft breasts. I dragged it along the sensitive under side of her tits, and across her ribs. I used the point of the blade and lightly stabbed at her hard nipples. Causing her to moan and squirm. I tormented those soft globes for awhile as she moved under me. I wanted to taste her blood, but refrained. Later to find out she wanted the same thing....sighs...Another time for sure...

 This act alone showed Master this girl put her life in His hands, He had total control over her, she lay on the bed, no ties, no binding just pure and utter trust in Him, this was a very intense and mind blowing moment for U/us both. One that W/we hope will be repeated...smiles

Sunday 13 October 2013

Happy to Announce


As readers of this girls blog know she has Someone very special in her life and that Someone is Master William... huge smiles.  Some of this girls readers may have read His blog over at http://thetrainingofmylovelyslut.blogspot.co.uk   W/we are in a long distance relationship and have been T/together for nearly two years now and O/our relationship is thriving given the distance between U/us. W/we shall be celebrating O/our second anniversary in a couple of months smiles. He came into this girls life at just the right time as she was contemplating of taking a break from the lifestyle and since then He has nurtured this girl and boy oh boy has she blossomed...... huge smiles.   she is thankful to Him being a huge part of her life now. 

Thank you Master.... smiles

Wednesday 2 October 2013

Delicious Time Away



well am back, back to the grindstone of work and mundane life...this girl had a wonderful holiday and the most fantastic time with her Master...huge smiles...W/we lived as Master and slave 24/7 for the time W/we were T/together....got to do so many wonderful and delicious things.... Master chose this girls clothes, ordered her meals when W/we were out at restaurants, this girl  found that a little strange but loved it non the less....there was some yummy bondage, caning, flogging, tit torture, knife play...this girl is now totally hooked on this knife play...it is delicious and dark and she wants more of it...smiles  this girl surprised herself with the amount of pain she took...mmmm it was also her first time feeling the cane...Master was careful about this though....but He was very proud of His girl...huge smiles  so am a very happy and content slave...huge smiles

Thursday 5 September 2013

AWAY.....

this girl flies out tomorrow to be with Master...excited...yes hell am excited...laughs....dont think this girl will sleep much tonight...smiles...see you all in a few weeks....stay safe E/everyone...smiles




Friday 30 August 2013

EXCITEMENT!!!!!





The excitement is building in the girl..this day next week she will be with Master....huge huge smiles...she is wishing her life away until that moment when she walks into His arms....it will be wonderful and a lot of delicious things will be taking place too....ooooooooooooo this girl cant wait...she is on countdown!!!!...smiles

Sunday 11 August 2013

whats ahead of her.....


"you will be My decadent treat. A sweet meal for the Sadist...Seasoned with pain and passion...Mmmm.."

How delicious are these words!!!!

Saturday 10 August 2013

what she loves......

she loves the way You make her smile and laugh

she loves the way You make her cry with pain but also with the beautiful things You say to her

she loves the way You brighten up her day when she is feeling sad and low

she loves the way You always compliment her on how she looks and how proud You are of her

she loves the way You have taught her so much and are still teaching her about herself

she love the way You encourage her in everything she does for You

she loves the way You have nurtured and guided her through O/our time T/together and continue to do so

she loves the way You are fair when she is being punished

she loves the way You are controlled and guided in Your thoughts

she loves the way You kiss her intensely and how You pull her close to You (soon to feel again..sighs)

she loves how You remain calm and how with just a few words You can calm her down

she loves how W/we can talk about anything, times this can be very difficult and challenging but W/we always get it sorted out

she loves how You dont let her go to bed without things being okay between U/us

she loves the way You named her and her heart skips a beat when You use it

she loves how You bring out the best in her

she loves how safe she feels with You

But most of all she loves being Owned and Controlled by You

all of the above makes her life worth living
thank you Master
slave

Sunday 23 June 2013

Quiz

i took this quiz which monkey had linked on her blog to to see what i would come out as, first time i have seen this.... here are my results..smiles.  maybe some of my readers would like to have a go....here is the link:

 http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-submissive-type-test


Your result for The submissive type Test ...

Slave

You scored 20% Humiliation, 82% Submissiveness, 65% Service, and 62% Pain!

You're the slave, you scored high in both submissiveness and service, you probably want to be owned by someone, you feel the need to relinquish your power over to someone else and to service him. You are the ideal partner for 24/7 Owner/slave relationships, whether you like or dislike pain is a matter of taste, hence with humiliation, but I would bet that the chances are you enjoy them sometimes but the most important thing is whether your Dominant will enjoy doing those things to you.
Good luck in finding your best relationship :)

If you enjoyed my test and you are a bi female why not hop over and do my other test? The BDSM threesome Test
  • Humiliation Distribution
    • You scored 20% on Humiliation, higher than 11% of your peers.
      Service Distribution

      • You scored 65% on Service, higher than 58% of your peers.


    • Submissiveness Distribution
     You scored 82% on Submissiveness, higher than 97% of your peers.
    • Pain Distribution
      • You scored 62% on Pain, higher than 76% of your peers.




Saturday 1 June 2013

Beautiful




Master has just done the most amazing thing...He wrote this slave a beautiful song..a song about O/our journey T/together.....huge smiles here...she received it yesterday and heard Him sing it for her which was amazing....huge huge smiles...He still has to tweek it a bit here and there as He is singing it acapella for her....but this girl loves it...He has really made this girl feel so so special...thank you Master for this beautiful and amazing gift...her first ever song...huge smiles...Love You Master.


Sunday 21 April 2013

Loving sighs




i have the most loving Sadist ever, He says the most sweetest and romantic things to me....huge smiles

Goodnight My love...Curled up against Master's chest, sleeping against Him. Feeling His heart beat for you......


oh what fun

Wont it be wonderful for all of U/us that are in a LDR when this comes onto the market!!!...laughs

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2311536/The-future-foreplay-Vibrating-Fundawear-controlled-smartphone-help-long-distance-lovers-touch.html

sorry am not the best at putting links up but am sure if you highlight and paste it into your browser you will be able to read it...smiles

Wednesday 10 April 2013

Would You????


Read this article and i was just wondering what others think about it....personally speaking 'No Thank you'!!!! would rather know the person i'm drinking from...hahaha

A bartender is hoping to lure drinkers into what he predicts will be the next big thing – semen cocktails.
Yes, you read that right. Paul ‘Fotie’ Photenhauer is currently pedalling his latest tome, Semenology – The Semen Bartender’s Handbook.

And he’s no one trick pony by the way – back in 2011 he proudly oversaw the publication of Natural Harvest: A Collection of Semen-Based Recipes. So, anyway, yes Photenhauer wants you to appreciate “learning how to mix selected spirits to enhance the delicate flavours of semen.”

As well as featuring cocktail recipes such as the Macho Mojito, the Slightly Saltier Caviar and the Galliano Cum Shot, he also offers helpful advice on the harvesting and storage of this “freshly harvested ingredient.”
He told SF Weekly: “If you want your partner to swallow, you should be willing to eat your own semen – I mean, it’s your semen.

“Then I started thinking about it. People eat all kinds of weird shit. Eggs are the menstruation of chickens. Milk is the mammary excretion from cows. Semen is… at least it’s fresh and you know who the producer is.”


The same article quotes an infectious disease specialist and professor at the Berkeley School of Public Health, who asked not to be named.

In response to concerns about HIV and other STDs which can be transmitted through raw semen, he said: “If the food is thoroughly cooked, well-cooked, to destroy any life forms in the semen, like any viruses… that would be my first concern.”

Though Photenhauer recommends only using “trusted” sperm for his cocktails, the blurb of his book reminds us that “Semen is often freshly available behind most bar counters and adds a personal touch to any cocktail.”

What’s more, Photenhauer believes the complexities of semen could be compared to those in wine or cheese, and he insists this is no gimmick.

Before you roll your eyes and vomit into your own hands, let’s remind ourselves of a study by The State University of New York, which found semen is good for your mental and physical health.

Whether it enters the body through oral sex or sex without a condom, the “mood altering chemicals” contained within seminal fluid reduce depression, increase affection and help you sleep
.
Which is all well and good but I won’t be asking for a Watermelon Gin Jizz anytime soon, I can tell you.




Saturday 23 March 2013

Blissful Training


amazing...the most amazing feeling ever...Master and this girl got to train...yyyyaaayyy....happy dancing around the room...this girl is still very tender in Master's tits and ass...to touch or put pressure on either of them is sore but a beautiful pain that brings back beautiful memories...smiles

there was a little doubt that W/we may get to training but it all fell into place beautifully....just the waiting for it to start, the little panics that something may come into force that would stop it but it didnt and W/we got to do what W/we B/both crave....smiling

As usual Master took complete control from the get go...smiles....having His slut insert His cock into His ass infront of Him on cam...it felt wonderful to do that for Him it felt wonderful to feel Him inside of her..smiles btw Master this girl forgot to ask permission to remove it after You went to bed, hopefully it was alright to do that..smiles  then He had His slave put the cords on which are very tight and so give Master tits a good colour to them, then He started on His favourite past time, tit torture, this girl flogged slapped pinned clamped Masters tits and boy are they tender, at one point this girl was on the verge of tears as the sting of the flogger landed on His nipples...He also had this girl remove the pegs with the flogger at times too, jeepers when they dont come off in the first swat and cling on, they are sore little buggers....Master had this girl also lift His tits up by the cords on the clover clamps, now this girl is well endowed shall we put it and to lift Master's tits up with the cord and clamps was a huge thing for her to do but she did and at one point Master asked her to lift His tits up far enough and pull on the cord so that the clamps are removed...now anyone knows that clover clamps are not easy to remove and well this girl gave it her best shot but was unable to do so, but its early days in her training...smiles  After some more tit torture Master asked this girl to flick each nipple once with her fingers she did so then Master informed her that that was a request from His boss...this girl laughed and told Master that was sneaky but said to say thank you to his boss and let him know that it stung!!!! laughs

Master also had His slut whip His ass with the wire whip, this time she was to do it slowly and harder, Master had her start off with a few swats then gradually build it up, this girl lost count of how many times she swatted Master's ass and come to think of it His tits too enough to say this girls arm was sore...Master had this girl edge once early on in the training with her bullet which was amazing....smiles loved attention at Master's clit....later on He had this girl use her vibe to edge but no cumming

then Master had this girl whip His pussycunt a real favourite of this girls, something she never thought she would like but she loves the sting the flogger leaves on it, especially when it is aroused...mmmmmmm again this girl lost count of how many times He had her flog it...at one point Master asked this girl to cum whilst doing it but she was unable to....it was just a trial to see what would happen...but again its early stages in her training...smiles....Master kept reassuring His slut of how proud He was  of His girl....how hard and horny she had made Him...she was feeding the Sadist inside of Him....and He then asked this girl to edge two more times with the vibe but on the third time she was permitted to cum....because Master was so horny He needed to stroke...He wanted His slut to cum at the same time which she did and love it...it is very rare that W/we get privacy for that to happen.....what an orgasm this girl had and Master told His slut He blew a very big load for her too...mmmmm will get to see that for real soon enough

After W/we finished training Master allowed this girl to put her robe back on to keep warm...she put away the toys and then wrapped up in her favourite furry blanket to keep warm...this blanket is her Master's arms around her...smiles...she had that funny look on her face and she felt it too...this girl reached subspace and boy was she smiling...she felt drunk and floaty so much so that it is snowing here and she had shown Master the snow and asked would He like to see His girl stand naked in it...He said yes...of course He would, so this girl did...bloody hell it was freezing...and this girl doesnt think she would do something like that if she wasnt in subspace...silly or what!!!!...laughs.

He stayed with his girl throughout until she came back down again as He always does...this girl loves this part of O/our training too, and she will have that for real too in september....huge smiles.

Tuesday 19 March 2013

25 Questions

Got these questions from K's blog Her Spirit His, thought they would be fun to do....smiles

1.   Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
      Closed, untidy otherwise
2.   Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
      Oh yes and any other little samples they leave out
3.   Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
      No dont bother with coupons too often
4.   Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
      Big bear it would be over quicker
5.   Do you always smile for pictures?
      Not really, hate having my pic taken
6.   What is your biggest pet peeve?
      Kept waiting
7.   What size is your bed?
      Kingsize
8.   What’s your least favourite movie?
      Westerns
9.   What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
      Dont eat chicken nuggets
10.  What is your favourite food?
       Lasagne
11.  What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
       Doris Day movies
12.  Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
       No
13.  Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
       Hell no, dont have the body, though Master would say differently
14.  When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
       To santa a llloonngg time ago
15.  Favourite kind of sandwich?
      Smoked salmon on cream cheese bagel
16.  Best thing to eat for breakfast?
       Porridge
17.  What is your usual bedtime?
       Usually between 11.00 pm and 12.00 pm unless told to go earlier
18.  Are you lazy?
       No, she says proudly
19.  Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
       No
20.  Do you sing in the car?
       Oh yes and anywhere else i can get away with it!!!
21.  Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
       Dont have those stores here, but Asda, when in states usually Walmart
22.  What’s your favorite color?
       Blue
23.  Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
       Tucked in at the bottom free at the sides
24.  Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

       No
25.  Do you like to use post-it notes?
       Oh yes love those little things








Saturday 16 March 2013

Saturday 9 March 2013

happy dance


Yep you guessed it....this girl got her release after 5 weeks of orgasm denial... i got pretty frustrated, annoyed , irked towards the end but Master calmed me down, spoke to me, had me write an essay on how this affected me, how i felt towards Him but the loving Man that He is He gave me permission to have my release not just once quite a few times in fact...smiles.  hhhmmmm wonder what He has in store for me next time...smiles

Thursday 7 March 2013

Still awaiting.....

am becoming a  frustrated....needy....slut....hopefully He will give me the release i am needing right now...dont know if i can go on much longer!!!!  hhmmmm a bit of begging required me thinks...smiles

Sunday 3 March 2013

Wont He....

Master hasnt decided yet....so am still in denial....loving this though...smiles

Friday 1 March 2013

Will He....

This girls months orgasm denial is up....hhhmmmm wonder will He or wont He....

pretty please Master....as she flutters her eyelashes...laughs...

Wednesday 27 February 2013

How would you...


I was wanting to know how subs/slaves would describe their Master in ten words using just one word...here are my ten words describing Master, they are in no particular order...

    Sadist
    Dominant
    Loving
    Nurturing
    Trustworthy
    Protective
    Affectionate
    Ethical
    Understanding
    Fair
    
am sure there are others that i could add to the list...smiles...but He is all of these and more and He has my heart...smiles

Thursday 14 February 2013

Day of Delicious Torment

I am on permanent orgasm denial, and it depends when Master is feeling generous whether or not i get to orgasm, i can cope with this and have been doing so, difficult at first because thats all one focuses on but you learn to cope with it but when Master told me that i was on orgasm denial for the month of February well it sort of takes over your mind...laughs...the real urge to have an orgasm now seems to be forefront in my mind...laughs, but am only allowed to wash and clean myself and no other touching of any kind until Master instructs me to do so.

so yesterday Master decided to give me a day of arousal and torment...smiles.  

i was to wear my tack bra for as long as possible so at 7.00 am the inserts went in, boy those wee tacks nip so much, times the pain is okay and i can handle it, other times they sting and hurt like mad depending on how this girl is feeling, then if she stretches they scratch along her skin, times if she hits them accidently the pain shoots through her or if someone gives me a hug they press into her breasts, she can feel good, then totally frustrated to the point she wants to rip them out as they dig into her.... so its a love/hate relationship this girl has with wearing this, but such a feeling when it comes off...mmmm the pleasure one feels when she is allowed to touch them to soothe them...smiles.  

On top of this i had to use deep heat on a sensitive area a few times during her work day...now this stuff burns like mad initially, its like hold your breath time as the burn kicks in,  but such a delicious feeling as the pain subsides and stays with you....then every so often another little kick hits you.  so as one can imagine going home using public transport was quite an interesting journey...stopping and starting, moving back and forth, a little squirming in my seat and all the while trying to look relaxed and comfortable...smiles

then when i got home i was to use Master's flogger on that sensitive area, and give it quite a few lashes and i mean quite a few...laughs. such stings as the strands landed against her...after those you can imagine it felt swollen and tender, but no not enough for Master i had to edge 3 times, well that was difficult not tipping over, took me a lot of self control to stop just before the orgasm was upon me, still not enough for Master He had me put on more deep heat and just as the burn was kicking in He had me give myself more lashes...now this hurt and i really had to push myself to do this, but i did....says she as she smiles proudly, but wow the sensation she felt after she finished.

Master was very proud of me and i felt His control over me the whole day, it was a wonderful day of mixed emotions and pleasure...if only there could have been that reward at the end...but He will grant me that another time....i hope...smiles  this is what i need, what i crave, what fulfils me and Master knows how to control and focus me, and i need Him in my life....smiles


Saturday 9 February 2013

my Mojo is Back

A brief update .....yyaayy this girl hasnt lost it at all...smiles...her mojo hadnt left her, it had just hid away....smiling

Master took this girl in hand and we had an intense training session last weekend, and it was what this girl needed...sighs...Master is an expert on tit torture and well i am still coming to terms with loving the pain, His pain, so last weekend He really pushed me, pushed me way beyond what i have ever done before, His tits were a beautiful colour of red with the blood trapped in them because of the bungee cords, then the clover clamps were put on...hate those nasty little buggers, then the clothes pegs were put on at the same time, Master then had me flog the pegs off with the flogger and when they didnt come off at the one swipe then clung to His nipples with an such an intensity of grip...had to really flog those little suckers...laughs and all the while Master was doing what He does best i had to use the wire whip (wire coat hanger) on His ass....lets just say that sub space was amazing after this.  This is what His girl needed and its amazing how i am feeling now, i am feeling my true self again, i feel contentment in my life with Him again, i am so glad that this happened when it did, it was like a wake up call to the B/both of U/us.

Master found a great article for me to write a report on it was about slavery and i was to incorporate my interpretation of what slavery means to me, which i really enjoyed doing, the article was a great read, little things that one doesnt think about unless you are in a 24/7 relationship, but can also be incorporated into LDRs, it gave U/us food for thought.  Here is the link if you would like to read it.  http://www.enslavement.org.uk/soyouwant

so its all good again with U/us, i learnt a lot of lessons, the main one to be more open with Master which i thought i was and that it is His decision alone not my decision on what i think He should know. There are still problems in my vanilla world but i am well focused again on being true to who and what i am.

Monday 28 January 2013

Struggling

Am i losing my mojo!!!! i am struggling at the moment with my slavery to Master, a lot of things are and have been happening in my vanilla life that have hindered O/our training sessions, causing me to question my submission to Master.  At the moment i am concerned only with how i am feeling, what i want to do, what i dont want to do, i am not taking into consideration any of Master's feelings, His needs, His wants at this moment in time.  This morning Master instructed me to wear my tack bra and for the first time in the year W/we have been T/together i struggled with this instruction, i said to myself  'i dont want to wear this, if i dont wear it Master will never know'!!!! because W/we are in a LDR....wrong, wrong, wrong, i know this is so wrong but i had to fight with myself this morning to wear it and complete the task that was set me.  i did wear it and have been wearing it all day, even as i write this i am wearing it, its like by wearing it still  im compensating for the doubts that i am having.  its like i have hit a brick wall!!!!, Master says W/we will get back on track, but i cant just turn it back on, im not in that frame of mind.  Has it been all that is happening in my vanilla life that is impacting on me, i have dealt with things before and it has never interferred with my slavery to Master, i am very good at coping with things that are thrown at me, but not on this occasion....should i be feeling like this if my submission is deep within me...where has all my motivation gone???

i am not in my slavery mindset at all, what is happening to me!!! Master and i are still very happy and He is aware of how i am feeling and what my thoughts were today and W/we are dealing with this, He is very understanding and has been very supportive to me throughout what has been happening but i just wanted to know from others have they gone through something like this?, is it a passing phase?, were they able to get back on track again? do you have any helpful suggestions?